This week was more focus on trying to get a job....
In my last post I mentioned that I was considering working in a different tech stack to not only mix things up, I've been working with JS and JS frameworks for what seems like forever, but also trying to add other skills to make me stand out a bit more.
The result? Imposter syndrome is a very real thing.
I decided I would dip my toe into the .NET Core ecosystem, specifically ASP .NET and Razor pages.
I've worked with Unity a bit, I've studied C# a bit and know the basics. I definitely like working with typed languages so I thought it would be a natural progression, but it really hasn't been.
Working with the tutorials from the MS site, following some Youtube tutorials I was able to make some progress, but when I tried to go rogue and do my own thing I struggled a lot.
There just seems to be a lot going on, under the hood, especially if you're using templates to create projects and I'll just say it was pretty overwhelming.
That's when the panic and self-doubt really started to kick in...."It was a fluke you did so well in bootcamp, you're really not smart enough for this, no one will hire you", etc. etc.
It doesn't come as naturally to me as it seems to for others, but I know it's more or less just me being hard on myself and that if I keep at it, eventually I'll get it.
It's convincing myself that, that, is actually true....
/end existential crisis